It is all about you and your past

How Much Time Do You Spend Thinking About Stuff That Happened In the Past?

By Robert Farmilo

Writing about this idea immediately hurls me into the past.

The idea came to me as I caught myself thinking about my life.

“Oh, yeah. Here I am, again, thinking about stuff that happened. I am back in my past. Dwelling on events from in the not-now.”

As I continued to consider this habit (for that was my self-diagnosis), I began to wonder how much of my mental activity was bound up in the not-now and the not-future.

I started to make a rough guess about how much of my thinking was about shit that had already happened.

It seemed to me that the majority of my thought-time was captured by my enthrallment of my past.

The quality of feeling attached to my memories seemed to me to be mostly in the style of anguish and sorrow about what I had done, what had been done to me, and so on.

I lived in a sewer of grievance: grievance against myself, grievance aimed at other people.

The other components that slopped over the banks of my river of the past included a healthy helping of shame.

Thanks to the insight provided by something called psychology, we have two distinctly different types of thinking about the past.

ONE: Introspection (the good kind of contemplating your past).

TWO: Rumination (yikes! Not the good kind).

If you are a regular visitor to The God Consciousness Project, you know that there are some practical actions you can take in the present moment to hijack your mind and reset the direction your thinking is heading.


These are simple methods that are devoid of the need for some (or any) belief in God.


Dr. Robert Firestone refers to the rumination process as letting your inner-critic take over your mind. He calls this inner-critic the “anti-self”.

By now, you can get the feeling that the payoff for indulging in rumination thoughts is not super wonderful.

Here are some of the usual outcomes for you when you keep on keeping on picking at the scabs of your thoughts about the past:

  • Depression

  • Anxiety

  • Frustration

  • Digging deeper into your distressed feelings

  • Impair ability to think and process emotions

  • Increase feelings of isolation

  • Push people away from you

  • Make you more angry

  • Generate suicidal thoughts

  • Lead to suicide

The intrusion of unwanted thoughts creates a fertile mental state to stay stuck in the bad shit you've done in your life, and the bad shit you think has been done to you by other people, places and things.

This fosters a negative mood, and this self-reinforcing loop shoots you back into the cycle of going over and over the stuff that is in your past or that you think is in your past that you feel bad about.

It is a vicious cycle.

To turn this around and take full advantage of your ability to literally change your mind is one way you can redirect the considerable power of your thinking (and feeling).


I am glad you asked.

When you become aware that you are lost in thinking about the past and your state of mind is getting more and more negative, this is a cue to disrupt the cycle.

The act of becoming aware of your own thinking and to consciously acknowledge that you are in the ocean of shitty thinking (and feelings) is a most excellent start to the process of consciously disrupting your own vicious cycle.

In that moment, you consciously pause your thinking. The disruption begins with noticing the fact you are lost in the past.

“Oh, here I am, again.”

“Oh, hmmm. I can choose my next thought.”

And you let yourself watch what comes next into your mind.

If it is more of the same crappenzee, then you can again say to yourself, “Oh. Let's reboot.”


The truth is that the more you disrupt your tendency to be seduced by the negative aspects of your past, the more you can build a realistic relationship with your past.

Which brings you and me to the idea of introspection about the past.

This is the process of discovering the useful information locked in your version of what happened to you in your past.

Introspection equals getting prompts from yourself about what you can do differently to avoid the suffering that is yet to come.

It also includes coming to terms with what you can't change.


Okay, all that stuff you just read may sound super great fantastic, like you can take control of your own mind and change your mind's thinking.

But, there is blow-back from the parts of your self that have their own agenda.


Yeah, your mind can hijack you and take you back inside the horror of deep-rumination.


Deep-rumination is the unpleasant experience of when your mind is captured by the shitty past stuff that you have been absorbed into. And when you try disrupting this stream of thought, all that happens is your get sucked deeper inside.

Each thought you touch with your mind is like a tar-baby.

It gloms onto you, loading you down, and only seems to attract more of the same toxic waste contained inside your compartment of the past.

Oh, sure, this is all based on your version of past events. Keep in mind (if you can!) that if we share an experience, there will be my version of what happened, your version of what happened, and what really happened.

But that won't matter very much to your habit of dwelling on the past. Your habit digs a mental rut that is difficult to get out of. Your habit starts to take on a life of it's own.

How do I know any of this stuff?

Because, I suffer from this affliction and it sucks chunks.

Oh sure, I can do all the things outlined in this lesson. But in the long, dark march of the night, I can become a victim of myself.


What to do?

Well, if you are into beseeching God to help you out of a self-created jam, I suggest you invoke your deity and ask for help.

I can recommend this book to get you started:


Another action you can take is to get some help from somebody who is qualified to help you.


Yes, a mental health professional who is not going to bleep with your mind.

There are some good ones out there.

Yes, they probably want you to pay them for their time and expertise.

I know, I know: the nerve of them! How dare they want to be paid! Don't they just do it for FREE and not a FEE?


Anyway, my final word on all this is that a lot of what is locked into your suffering over your past and predilection to ruminate over your past is something called SHAME.

More about shame later.



IF there is God
What does God think of sex?
And what about this one:
What do you think God thinks about sex?

The following text allegedly dictated by telepathy from God to a human. The human typed each word as allegedly dictated by God.

The following text allegedly dictated by telepathy from God to a human. The human typed each word as allegedly dictated by God.

“Yes, you want me to tell you at what age and in what combinations and what is okay and what is going to send you to the hot place. And for that matter, you also want to know IF there is a hell, and for that matter, IF there is a heaven, and you also want me to tell you what is wrong and what is right.”

“I know you want me to tell you what to eat and what to wear and what to say and what to think and how to eat and when to eat and on and on and on. Well, back to sex!”

“Be careful with the tender hearts that I gave you, including your own. Even if you think that you do not have a tender heart, or that you have any sort of heart, YOU DO!”

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Extracto del Capítulo 23

He aquí un breve extracto de este capítulo titulado SEXO.
Lo que está a punto de leer supuestamente fue dictado al mecanógrafo humano de Dios por medio de la telepatía.

¿Dios es telepático?
Decide por ti mismo.

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Lo que haces con la versión del sexo que experimentas es lo más importante.

Quiero que te concentres en lo que quieres, lo que realmente, realmente, realmente quieres cuando se trata de sexo.

El sexo es importante para aquellos a quienes es importante. Puede usarse para degradar y dañar y mantenerlo en un estado de terror, miedo e incomodidad.

El sexo se puede utilizar para intimidar, controlar y castigar.

El sexo puede usarse como una forma de obtener lo que quieres, lo que crees que quieres.

El sexo puede usarse para hacerte sentir mal contigo mismo y con los demás.

Piensen en lo poderoso que puede ser el sexo para algunos de ustedes, lo que les hará hacer mientras están esclavizados por el deseo sexual.

Pero una vez satisfecho ese deseo, oh, qué rápido se puede experimentar esa frialdad y esa distancia.

Algunos de ustedes saben lo raro y extraño que puede ser el sexo, lo que puede sentirse, cuando pasan al sexo y luego, durante ese pequeño espacio de tiempo, todos sus problemas desaparecen. Pero cuando termine y comience la separación, entonces si el problema no se resolvió, oh, volverá a estar ahí.

Permítanme ser más específico: supongamos que dos personas tienen relaciones sexuales y comienzan en un lugar donde hay algún malentendido entre ellos, tal vez hayan tenido una discusión sobre algo, pero luego surge algo y comienzan a comunicarse desde un lugar de lamentando la pelea entre ellos, algún reconocimiento de ternura y arrepentimiento entra en su conciencia, tal vez también algo de miedo, miedo a perder la conexión, miedo a tal vez terminar su 'relación', ese tipo de cosas, y luego se mueven en la intimidad física, en el tipo que pronto tiene una cualidad sexual de excitación, y tal vez esto se pone allí deliberadamente como una forma de superar ese horrible sentimiento de falta de conexión, de falta de interés por la otra persona.

Entonces, ¿sabes sobre esto? ¿Cómo se puede usar el sexo para disimular las diferencias entre ustedes?

Tal vez el acto sexual pueda ayudarlo a superar momentos tan inconsolables, PERO en su mayor parte, todos saben lo miserable que puede sentirse DESPUÉS de que el sexo termina y vuelve a ser quien es, dónde está y con quién está. que donde estas.

El argumento comienza de nuevo. No has solucionado nada. El conflicto básico permanece.


Humans Are The ONLY Sentient Forms of Life in the Entire Universe?

Robert Farmilo

The back and forth on this subject can make for tough moments for the intellect.

Here is the link to the first part of this series:

There are a few stellar scientists (who are not labelled crackpots) that are willing to stop sneering long enough to treat this entire topic with seriousness.

At the University of Nottingham in England, Christopher Conselice and Tom Westby calculated there should be at least 36 intelligent civilizations in our Milky Way galaxy who would have the capabilities of communicating with us. 

These two scientists based this probability on the premise that intelligent life shows up on other habitable Earth-like planets about 4.5 billion to 5.5 billion years after their formation.

There is no proof that this is so. It is all a form of intelligent guess work using a method called Bayesian statistics.

But then there is this:

Watch Pentagon's Declassified Video:
US Navy Pilots Encounter UFOs

You might have watched this compilation video when the story first broke in the mainstream media.

Ah, if that was the only one...then maybe we could just scratch our heads and then be lost in the next story that snatches our attention.

But, it isn't the only one, is it?

U.F.O Sightings in Arizona in 1997

For a complete rundown on the story, try this link:

And for those of you who want to fact-check and use some critical thinking, here is a complete refuting of the UFO, space alien, aspect of the event:

But then there is this next, little, factoid:

You just have to read the anecdotal evidence as recalled by the living witnesses to these events. They are truly incredible.

Video about the
Unidentified Aerial Phenomenum and Nuclear Weapons

And here is another link to more info about all this stuff. Take this seriously. Why? Well, I am coming to that.

So, what other astronauts have revealed their own experiences with UAPs?

Now, let's go to the UK and dig into some released files about UFOs.

Well, by now you might be inclined to think that something unusual is going on. Maybe there could be...gasp! aliens. But still, after all, really?

Perhaps you need some more "evidence". Let us take a look at this stuff released by the French government.

And here is the link to the GEIPAN mission and methods section. It is very interesting to carefully read what is currently online. Remember, this is an official French government agency that reports to France's Space Agency (CNES). 

And then there are the Canadians, eh? More incident reports of encounters and sightings of unexplained objects in the sky...and the ocean.

And here is a resource to find many official incident reports for UFO/UAP events in Canada:

One of my main points about the space alien deal is that there are people who make money from this topic. And a lot of people want you to believe what they believe --- pro or con.

Embedded in my main point about space aliens is that many people are genuinely curious about the subject. 

There is a history of deliberate supression of information about UFO/UAP events that are creepy. For many years, there was a deliberate campaign by government authorities to make the entire subject of space aliens silly and nonsensical.

This has caused the birth of a counter movement of people who claim that there is a conspiracy of the deep state to conceal the truth about space aliens.

It has made anyone who might normally come forward with their own personal experience of a UFO/UAP event, especially commercial and military pilots, to not say anything about what they experienced.

Plus, there are plenty of devoted skeptics who like to debunk the many anecdotal accounts of encounters with space aliens.

If there is a sighting of a UFO/UAP, and it comes with factual corroborating evidence, like radar hits, infrared signatures, video images, and experienced, non-crackpot, military witnesses, all of this is put through the filters of the determined debunkers.

Critical thinking is a crucial attribute...and so is an open mind. I think that if we use the concept of leaving our biases at the door, we might be able to notice more about what is going on when it comes to the subject of space aliens.

--- Our brains like to fill in the details ---

I reminded of an experiment run by a guy I know. He was a consultant, and did some work training air traffic controllers in Canada. One of the exercises he ran used a program that would introduce anamolies while the participants did their job.

The anamolies consisted of one object showing on the scope at a low altitude and moving at an unusually fast speed, and traffic moving at a low speed at a very high altitude.

The anamolies were mixed into the normal traffic happening on the job. Sometimes the low altitude object, and then after that, the high altitude object.

Each one of the participants never noticed the anamolies. 
When the exercise was revealed to them, the participants had a lot of trouble accepting what they had just experienced as being possible.

It took some effort for these experienced air traffic controllers to understand that they couldn't see what wasn't normal to their overall experience.

They literally could not see what was happening in front of their own eyes.

It took seeing the recording of what had happened during the training exercise to finally convince them that it had actually happened.

Sometimes it is not enough to actually see something with our own eyes because we just can't see it IF it doesn't fit into what we expect should be there.

Our brain literally rejects the input.

And this is the problem that some of the UFO/UAP deniers face. And it is the problem that some of the ardent believers in UFO/UAPs face, too. They see what they want to see.


Here is a link that you need to follow. It is from a group of people with some degree of credibility who are firmly in the camp that there are space aliens, and these space aliens are visiting our planet.

There are several, gob-smacking stories that come from multiple witnesses of the same events. Here is some reporting of several incidents in the same geographical location over a period of several years.

Finally, what does God think about all this space alien stuff?

Watch the Video


Intelligent criticism and analysis of the Mexican UFO event:

Hey there. If you've made it this far, please let me know what you think about this topic. Are there UFO/UAPs, and are there space aliens visiting our planet?



Robert Farmilo

The titles of this lesson will lead you deep inside the coming years that you and yours will travel through.

This tutorial is as much a prophecy as it is a cautionary tale.

First of all, does God care about you and yours?
What do you think?

IF there is God, does God care about what happens to you or anyone you care about?

And if there is God, why does God allow some people to become super rich and allow other people to not become super rich?

Why do you think some people manage to rise from obscure poverty to the very heights of joining the exclusive club of The Billionaire?

Let us take the example of The King of Russia. He started out as a poor boy in the former Soviet Union. He did not come from money.

What this man has done is to be the founder and maintainer of Putinism.

This is how The King of Russia has become either the richest man on Earth or a contender for the title of World's Richest Man.

How do you do this?
You enlist the help of a close group of "friends" and begin to dole out the financial, administrative, and media sectors to your "friends."

And then you persuade your "friends" to pay you an ongoing fee for keeping their hands on the levers of power and ownership. 

The King of Russia allegedly has a 50% fee being paid to him by the entire collection of so-called oligarchs of Russia. The 50% fee is 50% of all their earnings. Yes. Paid directly to The King of Russia.

So that is one way you can become a multi-billionaire.
According to testimony of Bill Browder to the U.S. Senate Judiciary Committee in 2017:

Do you think that God approves of the way that The King of Russia has become so rich and so powerful?

Did God organize the universe so that this could happen?


What about the riches of another human being, the man called Elon Musk?

The complete opposite of our first example, Mr. Musk was born into money. And he has all the pretensions of his class, too.

Let's face it: Mr. Musk was a smart guy. He had the advantages of a private school education and then being able to afford quality universities. He was smart enough to get the grades necessary to graduate with undergrad degrees in physics and economics.

He went on to be accepted into a Doctorate program at Stanford University in California. And it wasn't for advanced basket weaving, either.

But he didn't stick it out. Nope. He quit. 

So how did he make his many millions?
After he quit Stanford, he started a start-up, using Daddy's money...he "borrowed" the money from his dad.
(Mr. Musk and his brother and another guy started the start-up.)

I hope you can hear the sneer in my voice.

Thing is, Mr. Musk didn't have all this handed to him. He built the first company the hard way. (IF you ignore the helping hand of money from daddy.)

Mr. Musk claims that for his first start-up, he slept in the office, on a couch, and he showered at the local YMCA, shared one computer with his brother, and worked seven days a week, day and night.

What is it that separates you from becoming a billionaire?

What do all these billionaires have in common?

Are billionaires really all that great?

How many people are real, true billionaires?

And finally, how many billionaires living the billionaire lifestyle can this bio-sphere (Planet Earth) sustain?

Plutocracy = The Rule of the Rich = the super wealthy rule the rest of us. It's just the way it is. The more money you have, the more you are going to do make sure you keep that money and get more money to add to the money you already have.

It is also called the golden rule ---> the person with the gold makes the rules.

Now what IF the situation is reversed, and finally you are the person with all the gold. Are you gonna be able to resist making all the rules?

And are you gonna be content with all the gold? Or are you gonna want...MORE?

We always want more. 
It is natural to want more. 
It is your natural tendency.

The question arises, "What kind of more is it you want to be having?"


And to make sure you get more of what you want, you will make sure that the rules are bent to favor that inevitable outcome of you getting more.

Unfortunately for the rest of us, this means the vast majority of humans will get less...and less.

Finally, less of less of less until...they are getting next to nothing. Oh, by the way...this "they" thing? That is you and yours as much as it is...them.

So, what does God think about being a billionaire?
Let's ask God.

First of all, about the money.
Here is a bit about what God thinks about money.
This is an excerpt from the book God wrote.

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Are there any good billionaires?

Surely there must be some people who are billionaires who are really good people.

And anyway, not all the people who are NOT billionaires are really good people.

So why should anyone expect billionaires to be good people, let alone really good people?

These are all solid questions to be asking. But the main question this lesson poses is: "What does God think of billionaires?"

What follows is an alleged direct feed from God.

"The time has come to answer the question about what I think of billionaires.

The problem with the existence of money is that it is an addictive force in the form of an idea.

There is no money in the primordial swamp. The busy beaver does not use money to make its living.

Money is used to simplify the life of the human. It is an elegant invention. It represents energy trapped by an idea. 

Money does not equal what you can buy with it.

Money is NOT the bread you eat or the time it took to grow all the ingredients that went into making the bread you eat.

The seed used to plant in the earth to grow the wheat is NOT made of money.

The hard work of preparing the field for planting, this use of your body to do this work, the body you use, all of this...NOT made of money.

Money is an idea injected into objects that represent money. Objects like dollar bills and coins of refined gold.
The electronic signal of digits.

This idea is an implant that goes beyond the power of enslavement of most addictive substances.

The billionaire is addicted to the idea.
But you all are addicted to the idea.

It is just that the billionaire is able to marshall faculties and abilities to use the idea and bend it to his purpose.

His purpose is to get more money.

The byproduct of the actions of many other people contribute to this getting more money.

The billionaire uses the advantage of wealth-power to strip mine the surrounding humans and environment, and siphon off the majority of the "idea" that is, in essence, what money actually is made up of.

Rich men have risen up from the ranks of poor men since there has been men to rise and fall.

Always, always, always the rich men have bent the will of others to serve their will.

It is accomplished by trapping the poor men into being poor men. The rich men need more poor men than rich men to make more of the idea that is in essence what money actually is.

Without poverty, there can be no billionaires. The billionaire requires many people to be stricken with poverty. That is how the billions are made.

But it is all an idea, nothing more.

The money is an idea that is deeply believed in by all of you.
Without the belief in the idea of money, there would be no billionaires.

Before there was this idea of money, there was the dominance of strong men over weak men.
If there was something the strong man wanted, he would take it from the weak man. 

Some men would come together and trade something they had for something the other men had.

Before there was money, there was the way of barter.
This was a good way for you.

But you are clever people. You always want more of the more.
If I offer you a fertile jungle to live in, you will always want to make it more comfortable.

I made you to be a part of nature.
Not separate from nature.

The billionaire exists because of the separation of you from nature.

Because of this, the billionaire is doomed to complete and utter anihilation.

And this means the human world that has been bent to serve this will...will be completely destroyed --- because it is against the very thing (nature) that has been used by the money-addicts to sequester money.

I think that billionaires are in existence because of the corruption of your natural tendency to want more.

My creation is designed to be self-regulating.
The die-back is coming, and the purging of the billionaire is coming. 

I want the world to be a better and cleaner place for all of my creatures, big and small, to live. 

The thing is that many of my creatures live by eating part or all of each other. 

This is how wealth is transferred from one creature to the next. The wealth is the sustenance that sustains each creature.

The creatures are sometimes very, very small.
And these tiny, little creatures can eat very large creatures.

The billionaire is not massively physically powerful. He does not weild a mighty sword. But the billionaire uses wealth-power to dominate other men.

But when the end of all this comes, and it is coming, and sooner than you think, it will be to the few who have the ability to dominate other men by the force of their personality, to them that the rest of you will be dominated.

The leaders who rise from the end of your human civilization will be NOT billionaires. 

Money will be no more.

The idea that holds money together will be --- poof! --- gone.
Will a bird trade you a juicy worm for a dollar bill?
Will a wild crocodile accept a gold coin in exchange for its skin?

You will once again chop wood and haul water.
The spinning wheel will be reinvented.
The night will come, and there will be no Netflix waiting to subdue your personality.
There will be no society as you currently understand it to be.

And there will be no billionaires.

They are a symptom of the larger affliction afflicting your human reality.
This is the corruption of the power of belief.
You believe in money.
It has a complete hold on you.
Except for a few of you.
And most of you would gladly accept being made a billionaire.
IF it was possible for you to be given a billion dollars, you would be okay with that.

And why not?

This is how far from the swamp you have come.

Fortunately, I am all of this, even the ingredients that make the money in your wallets, the credit card of plastic, the coins jingling in your pockets.

I made you. And I made you so you could be shaped and formed within the bigger construct that I made. What is that? Well, let's keep it local and simple (for now) and refer to the planet you live on.

For billions of your years, your current species did not exist except as a future manifestation of all the potentiality of the planet that would be your future host.

Your planet has gone through a process of natural transformation. And this is true of the entire cosmos that your planet is cuddled by.

The cosmos is a big place. It is the cradle of life. Life does not have to have the limitations of your imagination. Sentience runs through all of it. Do you think a rock is stupid? Or the tiniest bit of anything?

I have a presence. It is with you, in you, and it is you. So you may well wonder why I would 'let' such a curiosity as a billionaire come into existence.

Stand by your incredulity because we have the coming of the world's first trillionaire. Before it all comes crashing down around your ears, there will rise up the first trillionaire.

This will be the signal of the end of your civilization as you know it to be. And it will be the end of your current idea called 'money'.

And now I want to leave you with this idea.
You don't have to believe in me.
I don't CARE if you do.
Of IF you worship me.
It does not make me love or hate you anymore than I already do.
But I do want you to communicate with me telepathically. That is why you have the latent ability to do this. It is mostly a stunted ability because of the repression forced upon you by your foolish and fearful guardians of access to me.

And by those who do not believe in me.
But there are some of you who do know that I am telepathic.
Whether you think it is true or not does not change the fact of it. And even IF you don't think or believe (or both) that it is true that I am telepathic and you are too, you can begin to communicate with me, directly, personally, privately, by yourself.

It is waiting for you."

God wants you to know that there was no mention of people who are billionaires who were born into money. Those that were born on third base, with millions already in the coffers.

It is rare indeed for a billionaire to come from abject, complete poverty. Billionaires typically do not rise from the gutter. Let me be clear: it is unusual for billionaires to have started out in a family that was (if they were lucky) earning a few dollars a day.