The God Consciousness Project: Running On Empty---Take Back YOUR Life

My Story of Always Being Broke and Never Having a Full Tank of Gas

Robert Farmilo

writing as

Swami Bob

"Honey, the fuel gauge is in the red."

Yes, I know.

"Do we have enough gas to get there?"

Sigh. Yes, maybe. Probably. I think so.

"Oh, okay."

And the tension in my guts tells me everything I need to know about once again being in the low-buck, no-buck zone.

She gives me a quick look to see what expression is on my dead-pan face. Oh, she can feel the vibes coming from me. And she imagines the rest, too.

The car keeps moving. Taking me ever closer to a job that I've just started. The job pays an hourly wage. It isn't a big wage. Just enough to pay the bills, buy some food, and keep on keeping on.

She knows that I work hard at the job. There is that sense of maybe we can finally get back on track. Get back to zero, and climb out of being less-than-zero.

Being less-than-zero means not enough money to buy food to eat.

Or pay the rent.

Or buy gas to get to work.

IF you are getting a buzz-kill from the tone of this article...I ask you to keep reading.

This is really not a lament.

It is a direct bulls-eye into the most important target you want to aim your secular mind at.

The target is made up of two basics:

And something else.

What?

Don't go running out of the room, screaming with agony when I tell you what the second ingredient is.

Okay?

Two powerful ideas that shake my imagination to the core. It is full-on murder of the idea that you can blame people, places and things for the way your life is.

Oh, sure...you can get your blame-thrower and pull the trigger.

I actually made a working blame-thrower. It fired little messages that read, "It's all your fault!"

Image of one type of Blame Thrower:

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Yeah, But What About When Other People ARE to Blame?

Some times other people are to blame for actions they do or don't do that cause you to lose some money, some love, some freedom, and some self-respect.

People can hurt your feelings, and even hurt your body. How can this be your responsibility? How are you accountable for other people making mistakes or willfully neglecting some responsibility that then hits you hard.

Maybe in your pocket book.

Okay, so now you've been done wrong, and it sucks.

Now what?

It might take you a while to get up off the floor...or the ground...or crawl out of the ditch you've ended up in.

Sad and Horrible Fact Department

Some people don't make it. They end up broken. Burned out. You can find people who are going to die in the gutter. They've given up being responsible.

Maybe they never had a chance. AND maybe some people had all the chances in the world. It just depends, doesn't it?

Hey, I am stating the reality.

There are billions of people who have the odds stacked against them. Life is a grind. Life is a struggle to survive, let alone thrive.

How can a little baby be held accountable?

What about the kid...? Is the kid responsible for the fact you are tired and bad-tempered and sharp-tongued?

I know what it's like to cast about...looking for someone to blame for my crappy life. Do you want to open up your life, and take a full account of what's led you to where you are right now?

To take back your life...the pulverizing truth is that you have to look with scorching truth power inside you. That's where the gold is buried.

That's all wonderful, Robert-Swami Bob, BUT it sounds a lot like hard work---AND I don't like that very much at all!

Yes, it does sound like hard work.
And, yeah, who does like hard work?
Just ask the slaves who picked cotton if they liked working out in the broiling sun, "Hey there, boy. Do you like picking that cotton?"

I dare you to tell those slaves that they are personally responsible for their situation.

"Hey there, Slave! You know that it's your fault you are a slave? That you are completely responsible for the current situation you find yourself in?"

What's a slave to do?
After all, the odds are stacked against that slave.
What are the viable choices?

You Make a Decision

Nobody else really was responsible for the conditions of their life.

And until they really KNEW this...and really agreed with the FACT of being completely responsible for each and every part of how they got to be where they were...and could no longer keep on blaming other people, situations, conditions, influences, events (and so on)---

---until that deep, soulful journey took place, not much was going to start changing.

The next step is to become personally accountable. And yes, it has to be with me being personally accountable to...me-me-me.

But to give this step the biggest shot of power-jolt...you are faced with the daunting, bowel-loosening decision to find someone else that you can become accountable to.

And there might be no one who is willing to take on that role.

It means that person will have to hold you accountable to something you've decided to do. And that something is probably going to be in a progressive series of actions that you have to complete.

Ouch!

UGH!

YUCK!

Excerpt from the book by Linda Galindo,:
The 85% Solution: How Personal Accountability Guarantees Success -- No Nonsense, No Excuses

Source: http://www.habitsforwellbeing.com/what-is-personal-accountability/

Hey! Swami guy, are you gonna give me something I can actually use that will help me? Like an example? Or some tips? I can't believe you are going to expect me to do this myself, all on my own. Can't you help me out here?

How I Am Taking Personal Responsibility---Baby Steps

Back to the example of Running on Empty---and the problem of the nearly empty gas tank.

HOW does this get transformed?

When a member of my family uses one of the cars...the gas tank is full. They are responsible for making sure that when they bring that car back---the tank is full.

Each person is accountable to the family group for keeping the gas tank full.

The next part of this tricky knot of people using a car that is NOT their own car is...
...that there is a young child in the mix.

The kid needs to be in a car seat.

Okay, this might get complicated.
So let's skip the detailed, convoluted explanation...
...and go right to the scene.

Here is some typical dialogue:

"Hey, I have to go to school today. And you're looking after Baby Cakes, right?"
Yes, I am.
"Well, you use Sissies car, and I'll use yours, and Sissie will use mine, and that way you can go and get Swami Bob after he's done work. Okay?"
Sure, okay, whatever.
"What about Swami Bob's car?"
Oh, yeah. THAT car is parked at the local, back yard mechanic's place. THAT car needs a brake job.

The above scenario is a real-life case study. And it is fraught with the potential break-down of the core agreement among the players in the drama.

I am looking for clean and simple solutions to being tied-up in knots with people who keep on pulling the same old games of making me responsible for cleaning THEIR dirty dishes.

Wait a minute!

Hmmmmm.

OUCH...sudden dawning of the Age of Enlightenment...and, OUCH! That sunlight hurts my eyes.

It isn't up to me to fix other people.

Is it?

Am I my brother's keeper?

HMMMMMMM---what about caring for other people?

Does that become...toxic?

To me-me-me, to them-'em-'em?

For now, it's enough for me to drive traffic to my own offer of personal responsibility---AND accountability.

The next excerpt might seem a little off track---BUT it has some of the practical tips that help to drill deeper into the mother lode of getting "it" done.

These following five key teachings are about having a paper mess controlling you, rather than you controlling your paper mess. AND each one of the five key steps can be converted to deal with ANY of the bleeped-up, sticky messes, you have created in your own life.

Excerpt from: 5 Ways to Be Accountable and Accomplish Your Goals